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08 januari Update on the yesterday's vent Well, I feel a whole lot better today then yesterday. Turns out I put to much into the homework assigment that was stressing me out because it was taking to long. In my efferts to do my best I'm over doing it. Typicle for me. Now I understand a little better my intructors method. That helps. On a good note, I got an A on my computer final! I thought for sure I was not going to get a good grade even to the point that my hands were sweating when he was passing back the papers to show us our grades. All I could think was "don't cry if it's bad, wait till you get in the car". After being a stay at home mama for so long I just don't have anything to put on an application and have very little if anything to brag about at an interview. I need to at least excel in my grades so I have SOMETHING going for me. I'm just glad I'm starting off good. God willing I can keep this up. It's so hard trying to do the school thing and still be the mama. Anyway, I better stop yapping and get some stuff done before I have to go.
07 januari A quick vent/break Before I vent I just want to say that I in no way am sorry for my choices or my situation. I am very happy and thrilled to have the opertunity to go to school and have a loving family who supports me in every way. That being said I am feeling a little overwhelmed by it all and I have only been to two classes! Now that I see just how much homework is going to be continually piled on me I am afraid, no I know, I will not be able to keep up with everything I did before. I knew I would have to let a few things go but now i see just how much. The laundry is already getting behind, the floors need to be mopped and I know I wont get to that untill Friday (ewww), I need to clean out the fridge (again, ewww), and I am missing more time then I expected with my kids. I know there has to be a way to manage all this and I know I will in time figure this all out but for right now, at this very minute, I am feeling a bit over extended. Not to mention that my internal clock that has always woke me up at 6:30am on the dot to get the kids ready for school is no longer working. I didn't wake up till 6:45am this morning! I guess it's back to alarm clocks for me. I was so hoping that me going back to school would not effect to much the rest of my family but now I understand that it is going to have a huge direct effect on them and I am so sorry for that.
 I still have to and will move forward because in the end this is FOR them and will benifit us all. The sacrafices are so hard for everyone but I am determined to make it well worth it for the whole family. They deserve the very best from me and that is what I am going to give them! God willing. A far as my class goes I am enjoying it very much and feel I am learning allot. There are a few things I don't understand about his method though and I don't know if I should open my mouth and ask or just keep it shut for fear he may get offended. He did give us an evaluation card so we can tell him what we think without putting our name on it. That's funny because my horrible hand writing and spelling tells my name for sure! LOL Oh, well. I guess I'll just have to see what I will do as I go. I have to say my head is spinning and my brain hurts. Yes really! My brain hurts. I'm even getting dizzy a little here and there. I hope this all goes away as I get used to useing parts of my brain that has lain dormate for a very long time. Is there a way to get in there and clean out those cob webs?
 We shall see huh? So that is it. I just had to unlaod so I can keep moving forward. I do feel better now and remember why I am doing all this craziness. Now I have to stop wasting time whining and crying and get some laundry going, pick up a little, possibly clean the bath room at least and then back to homework and studying. Oh, I can't forget that I have to at some time sit and pay SOME attention to my little Despina! Good day to all!!!!!  14 december A new road for mama! After spending what seems to be most of my life being a stay at home mama I am off tomorrow to register for school. I 'm taking classes for Medical Assistant. I thought before about doing EMT but after thinking long and hard I decided it would not be fair to my family to have to deal with me deal with the pain and sufffering I'll see on a daily basis. They say you get used to it but how long does that take? It's just not fair to them. I think I'll like Medical Assistant even if it may not be all that exciting. I hope that I'll at least make a difference in some way. I may not be in the position to save a life but I may be able to make someones medical experience a little easier. I hope at least. I am so excited to do this. I just hope I CAN! 03 december Time to blog again! I was just looking at my space and i realize I have not bloged or added pics since Sarah sang in the choir. Well! Now the choir did another perfomance and this time Joshua's class was in it too! That's not it. Sarah finally got the solo and she rocked it! I will post pics tomorrow and blog more about it too. Right now I have to lay down with Ari because he's feeling so needy lately. I'll bragging on kids soon!!! 01 oktober OOPS!Okay, looking at my posts you would think I only have one child! I'm not picking favorites, really! I just spend so much time with just her now that the others are in school that I see so much more of the things she says and does. I really like that she get's some time to be focused on. I do try to make sure I give everyone time to be focused on though. I do have to be honest and say I'm loving the time alone with my littlest one.
I have some pictures I'll be posting later of Sarah singing with the school chior last night. It was so cool watching my daughter up there singing her little heart out. She didn't get to do the solo but that's okay, she did great! Nektarios and Despina gave her flowers when she was done. Oh the smile that came across her face when she saw those flowers was priceless! She said "I feel so special". Love it!!! Yes! I'm bragging agian I have to brag. It's just to cute not to share. Yesterday I had Despina with me doing errands. I decided to get some Starbucks. I placed my order then asked if I could get a small chocolate milk with whip cream for my little one. It makes her feel like she's having something like mommy. I turned around and told Despina. "I'm getting you a treat too!" This little girly girly girly girl puts her hand over her mouth Pagent style and says in the girlyest voice ever "Oh my God!". HEHEHEHE. It was so cute even the lady making the coffee stopped and said "Did she say what I think she said?". Yup, that's my girly girl! After that the lady just oozed cuteness all over Despina. She loved it!
One more thing and I'm done for the moment. This morning Despina asked for my sponge and a water bottle. She likes to help clean. She sprayed the dishwasher and scrubbed it then did the same to the stove. When she was done she says "all clean mama". I told her what a good job she did and she said in the proudest voice ever "Thank you mama!". I could tell she was happy to please me. I love it!!!This little one has me giddy about three fouths of the day! Love it!!! 22 september Despina's princess Party! September 20th I gave brith to a beautiful baby girl. That was three years ago!
We gave her a princess party because, well... she's a princess. She loved having all the attention on her as we called her princess all day and catered to her every need. I'll tell you, she ate it up! She is still, three days later, wearing her princess dresses. She was so cute sitting on her throne opening presents and having everyone sing to her. Oh yes! She loved the part wene we sang
 Happy Birthday to Despina! I wish I would have captured the look on her face at that moment, it was pricless.We ended the party with the piniata. She was so excited to have piniata at her party, at least untill everyone started beating it with a stick! It was okay wene she did it but she got a little upset when other people started in on it. When it finally broke she was very upset. At least untill candy started falling out! She got the idea quickly after that! HEHEHE.
We had allot of fun giving her, her big day and spending time with good friends. What a great day!
Happy Birthday Baby Girl! 18 september Water fun for Despina! I had a few errands to run this morning and felt bad for Despina because I ran her around yesterday so I could visit my friend who lives an hour away. So! To make up for the long car rides I decided to take her to the shopping area close to our house. I know, that does not sound like much fun for a little one but it is. There is a really great play area for kids with a water works spot. I put her in her bathing suit and she had a blast! It was so much fun to hear her laugh as the water rushed into her face. I could not help but laugh too. I even had some nice conversation with some of the other mamas there. I'm glad I decided to take a little extra time and do something for her. She's such a sweet girl, it would be a waste to have her sit in the house all day every day waiting for me to get done cleaning to give her attention. I have to admitt, I'm getting better at dropping the house work to focus more on the kids. I do like a clean house though so I just clean faster! Anyway, we had a great time and I hope to sneek a few more water fun days in before the weather changes. I do have a lady down the street who has a little girl too so now we can do playdates! Despina loves playing with other kids so she is going to love playdates! 15 september Time alone with Despina Now that the kids, including Nektarios, are back to school Despina and I have some alone time. We have not done allot of great things or anything, at least not yet, but we have had some pretty cool days. We have enjoyed a few mall days, spend some time reading to eachother. She likes to look at the pictures and then mimic what she rememebers, It's so cute! When the weather cools off I plan to take her at least once a week to feed the ducks and go for a picnic in the park. Oh, we are just going to have to go to the zoo a few times too. I'm trying to find a mama with a little one her age so she can have play dates but we'll see. It's just so great being able to focus my attention on her with out anyone getting jelouse. I'll be posting more mama/daughter days as they come and I get the chance. Now, I'm not having favorites or anything. Despina is my last baby and I want to enjoy this time before she is off to school too. They grow so fast! I know I've said that before but it still amazes me as to how fast they grow!
 06 september Kids are great fun! This morning my girls let me sleep in. They got up and took care of the little ones needs and wants. To me that's enough to start my day great. An extra two hours of sleep on a Saterday morning is all I need. Well, I have to say they went above and beyond. I got out of bed, went into my bathroom to brush my teeth and I heard through the wall my coffee grinder going off. I'm thinking, "cool! Their making me coffee". So I went back to bed thinking I'll get up when the coffee is done and make breakfast. A little while later in walks Sarah with a tray in her hands. The first thing I notice of course is the coffee but as I look closer I see eggs and french toast. Breakfast in bed and it's not even my birthday!!! I was so full of love and thankfullness. I had this feeling that my kids really do apretiate (sp) the things I do. SO sweet!!! I did sort of feel bad for poor dad sitting next to me. They did'nt bring him anything. I told him I had plans to make him sausage and eggs and Shaina agread to make him french toast so he was good with that.
After I ate and made breakfast for Danny the kids and I sat on the floor and played UNO ATTACK. We laughed so hard we were literaly ROFL (rolling on the floor laughing). It felt so good to just let it out that we made each other laugh even harder. I still have the "feel good feeling" in my belly. Laughter really is good medicine.
So now, while the little ones are napping I think I'll go to the video store and rent "Oliver Twist" to watch together as a family. I was singing songs from it this morning so the kids and I thought it would be fun to watch.
We really wanted to go out and do something this weekend but since Nektarios is sick (fever and tummy pain) we have to stay home. That's okay because staying home and doing things together can be just as much or even more fun then going out and spending all kinds of money. I've always said that kids don't need all the bells and wistles we parents think we have to bestow on them. The memories that will last are the times we spend togther. Those are my memories of child hood that mean the most to me. I hope to make wonderful childhood memories for my children. The time we have while they are young is so short, better enjoy it while it's here. SO, that being said I better get of this computer and go spend some more time with them!!! 04 september He's reading!!! Nini, oops! I mean Nektarios is reading!!! Last night he showed me this little book with little one, two, and three letter words, then he started reading it to me. I was so proud and excited. I can tell he was proud of himself too because he read it like, five times. It's so much fun to see him so eager to learn. It's like all of a sudden he wants to know everything. He asks me all the time "what does that say?". Soon I just know he's going to be saying "I know what that says mama". Last night as I was reading him his bed time story he was trying to follow along with his finger and he read the little words for me. I can't wait till he can read me the whole story. Yes, I am a very proud mama. I can't believe it's only been four weeks of school and he's already reading. Can you imagine how much more that little sponge of a brain is going to soak up the rest of the year? You would think this is my first time having a child in school the way I'm carrying on and you know what? It feels like it! Every childs first is so exciting, it never gets old. I'm so proud of my little boy... 03 september A little FYI! Here's a little FYI for all you men who keep trying to add me as a friend or give me your number. I think it's clear on my profile that I'm happily married and I have five kids. I have NO interest in meeting men of any kind and I will not add you so don't waste your time trying. SO! To make things clear. I set up this page to share with family and friends and to meet mamas or nice LADIES who share the same interest as I. Please show me and my family some respect and look else where. Thank you, ME!!! 20 augustus Colossal Cave family fun day! This is not going to be long because I've not been able to put my blogs up lately for what ever reason. I hope this goes through!
Last weekend we woke up and decided to go out and do something rather then stay in side and do nothing all day. We decided to go to Colossal cave. It really was a great day. We got there and at the entrance to the park they gave the kids a little game to play along the way. They had to find these little blue boxes and each one would have a hole punch to punch out the cordinating picture on the blue paper they were given. This was so cool because it helped US to find everything to see! We brought our lunch and ate at some pic-nic tables then went exploring the park and played the game. It rained a little but nothing we couldn't handle. Wene we got to the cave entrance there was a few picures left to be punched out. What do you know! The last of the blue boxes were at the cave entrance. The kids tured in thier project and got to pick out some stones from the "treasure box". They loved it! The cave was beautiful, as you can see from the pictures I posted. Anyway, it was a great spur of the moment day with the family. Love these days! 10 augustus Great Summer! We have had a great summer! The high light of the whole summer has been going to Mexico of course. We shared a condo with some friends and stayed for five days right on the beach. I can't tell you how good it felt to feel the sand between my toes. I got up every morning at the crack of dawn, while the tide was out, to walk on the beach. which ever kids were awake would come with me and look for hermit crabs and shells. It was such a beautful way to wake up every morning. You'll notice allot of pics of Despina early in the morn. That's because she was always awake with me. It became our early morning quiet time to bond. She looked so beautiful in the early morning sun, wrighting her name (or what ever it was she was writing) in the sand. All the kids looked to beautiful, at peace, happy, and content. I was all those things too, finally! We left all our day to day stresses behind and just enjoyed each other and Mexico. Danny and I had such a great time playing with the kids, talking to the kids and just being a family with no worries for five days. Danny and I also got to have our time. We went for long, late night walks on the beach. We sat on the balcony and talked, we even got to have a night out with our friends! The whole time was awsome and definatly something we needed to do as a family. I'm so glad we got to have our family vacation this year. We liked Mexico so much, Danny and I are thinking of going to Mexico for "our" vacation later this month. I can't wait to lay on the sand and close my eyes for as long as I want! I love going on vacation with Danny. We have so much fun together, it's like we are in high school again. There is so much more that I have to blog about our summer but I'll get to the rest later in another blog. 07 maart What a day! Today worked out so well. After I made breakfast for everyone I cleaned the kitchen and living room, started laundry, wiped down the bathroom and even got Despina's room tidied. This does not sound like much I know but I got it all done before 10:00am. This was my goal since I promised Nini a pic-nic at the park! I wanted to be able to come back to a clean house so I stayed off the phone and mostly off the compter and just focused on getting things done. I even had time to send a little I love you email to my husband.  . I wanted to let him know how much I appreciated him getting up at 5:00 am to take care of Despina. Anyways, I loaded up the wagon with food and Despina then off to the park with Nini along side talking about this and that all the way. He really has alot to say! After we played for a bit we sat down to eat. It's amazing how much more a child will eat at the play ground then at home! What's that all about? Does food taste better out side? It was so cool not worrying about anything to clean or putting clothes in the dryer, just looking into those beautiful faces and enjoying their sweet smiles. I think they really liked having my complete attention, I know I enjoyed giving it to them. After we finished eating I pushed the kids on the swings for quite a while. We were having so much fun. I stood in front of them when I pushed so I could see thier faces and play little gotcha games which sent Despina in the biggest belly laughs I've heard in a long time! Meanwhile Nini was telling me the most amazing stories of how before I was born he was eaten by a shark and squeezed by an octopus! I couldn't stop laughing. I'm ashamed to admit that sometimes when I play with the kids my mind is on other things and I don't take the time to enjoy it. Not today, I had so much fun with them that my heart is swollen with love at this very moment. When I put Nini to bed tonight I told him that I had a really good time today and he smiled at me and said that he did too. He even mentioned his stories. I'll tell you what, I will be sure to keep taking the time to focus on all of my children. They are such awsome people and give me so much love, the least I can do is give them my time and love in return.  What a blessing I have in them.  06 maart A good morning! This morning I got an email from a friend with a link to a U-Tube video. The video was a guy on Opra giving a talk about living your life. He has cancer and there is nothing left that can be done for him. He talked in his lecture about living and having fun. I'm not going to go over the whole thing but I really got something out of it. I thought about how I fuss over my house all the time, putting the kids off so I can clean. The thing is the work will wait for me as long as it has to. My kids won't. They are going to grow up and move away. Then I'm going to be left with regrets of why didn't I take them to the park more or sit and play more often with them. I really don't think that I'll be wishing I had kept a cleaner house or that their going to say "hey mom, thanks for keeping the house clean when I was young!". Yeah, I don't think that's going to happen.  Anyway, after watching the video I got dressed, got the kids dressed, I got the puppy ready and we walked to the park and played together! Yes, I left the dishes in the sink, clothes and toys on the floor and decided I'll take care of it when I get back! We had a great time!!! With out even realizing it I also solved two other problems. 1. Despina, who usually won't eat, ate her lunch and 2. Nektarios and Despina both went down easy pleazy for nap time! Would you believe I still got my dishes done and picked up the clothes and toys? I've even got sheets and blankets washed. SO now I promised Nektarios that tomarrow we'll pack a lunch and have a pick-nic at the park. I feel realy good about this. Such a good morning! 02 maart New puppy We are all so excied! We have a new puppy Chihuahua named Plato. He is about 8 weeks old and is way to adorable. The first two nights were difficult since he missed his mama and brothers but now he is used to us and sleeps through the night. Every one in the house loves him. We have to be real carefull with Despina though because she's still a baby herself. Now we are busy teaching Plato our rules and he's a quick learner. As long as we pay attention to his signals he goes potty out side. He feels real bad when he has an accident and just sits and wines about it. Makes me feel bad too. He plays ball and it's so funny because the ball is bigger then his head!
Here's a picture of Despina reading Plato a nighty night story! 25 februari It's Monday again Every Monday I wake and say this is the day I start getting things organized. Yeah, I'm going to to clean the whole house top to bottem, start the yard work, work out, read fifteen minutes to the kids (or more, I love reading to them), and just be the best mommy and wife ever! As the day goes on I add more and more to my list. Things like clean all the windows, the cieling fans, the pantry, the frig, the closets, and what ever else my mind can come up with on top of the things I have to do anyway, like dishes, cook, mop, etc. By near the end of the day I realize I have put to much on my plate and start knocking things off my list. I really hope to get to the point that I can do the big of my house work on Mondays and just keep up for the rest of the week. This way I have time to do more things with Nektarios and Despina. I feel like I'm cleaning all day everyday. I want my family to live in a clean house but in order to keep it clean I can't stop cleaning! I feel like I'm sacrifising time with my kids for a clean house. I do spend time with them but not like I want to. I don't get how some women have a spotless house and time with the kids. Is this possible? There has to be a way. I try to say "Oh, just let it go for a day and have fun" but then I find that make up work takes twice as long then just keeping it clean. This is very frustrating. So today I am going to clean the house, skip the detailed stuff and hope that makes it easier. Maybe if I do my normal chores and just one extra a day that would help. We'll see. 21 februari Better days! I have to say that yesterday was a much better day. I took Nini and Despina to the mall for lunch and to the out side play ground there. This way we all get out of the house and they get to run off some energy. What a surprise when we saw Nini's God mother, Angelica, there. It was a nice addition for me to have good company. The kids ran around and laughed so hard that I had to laugh too. We had so much fun! There was hardly anyone there so I got to run around with them playing chase and taking picture. (I plan on posting them, maybe at nap time). When we came home Nini laid down for quiet time (he's better off with no nap). Despina went to bed and only bounced back once!!! YES!!! She took a much needed nap putting her back on track to good sleep. Having the rest from nap time she was not over tired at bed time and only got out of bed once. She still got up at about two but it was not a big deal. I was sleeping and was woke up by little fingers tap, tap, tapping on my arm. I looked and there with her pink blanky in one arm, a care bear in the other and a big sweet smile on her face stands Despina. I though oh, here we go. I gave her a drink, put her in bed, covered her up, said I love you ( I try not to engage in to much conversation) and walked out. That was it. She woke up giggeling this morning which was music to my ears! The lesson here... sleep begats sleep.lol. That old silly way of thinking to keep kids from nap so they sleep ealier and better at night is just not true! It's also not true if you keep them up later they will sleep longer! At least not for Despina. As for Nini, if he sleeps in the day it will be hours after bed time till he falls asleep. This is why he gets quiet time in his bed. He's old enough now that he'll sleep if he's tired. He is also sleeping later in the morning without tricks of keeping him up late. It's funny because I don't need a clock to tell me it's bed time. At about 8:00pm Despina and Nini will start wanting to sit with me,or should I say on me, and fight over who gets me and wine and cry. That's when I know it's bed time and sure enough it will be about 8:00pm. Kids have a built in clock. Anyway, I feel better today. I hope to have a good day today too so I better get off the computer and do it! 20 februari Mama needs sleep!!! Why don't two year olds need sleep? Yes, all the books say they should get such and such amount of sleep but studies at the unversity of Despina shows this is not always so. I'll just start with nap time yesterday. What nap time? No matter how many times I put her "back to bed" she bounced back out of bed. We did that untill three when I decided if she sleeps from three she'll sleep to long so I let her up. Anyone would think that certainly she's going to crash at bed time. Nope! Not my little insomniac baby girl. She did the same thing at bed time that she did at nap time. All the same tricks to try to get out of bed. Now one would think that she's going sleep all night and maybe a little later in the morning. No way!!! She wakes up at 2:00am and wants to get up! Then she keeps bouncing out of bed. We did this for what seemed like forever. Oh, and she woke up at 6:00am as always. I don't know what do about this. If she sets her mind to not staying in bed that's it, she wont stay. If I don't get a full nights sleep soon I'm going to crack up. Not just one night either. I need a few night to get rested.
 I have bags under my eyes that I think may never go away. I have figured out one thing though, when a child is getting enough sleep they sleep better. I know that sounds funny but it's true. It's when she get's off schedual that her sleep pattern get's all messed up. I'm going to have to focus now on keeping her very active today so she'll be tired to nap. I'm hoping that will get her back on track. Now for the rest of the day I have to get through her and I both being very cranky! The rest of the family is lucky. They have to go to school/work and don't have to deal with bad attitudes. Poor Nini though. I'll just have to make sure I remember that it's me in the bad mood and not him. I hate it when I see my mood reflected back to me by the little ones
 . It's so sad that they have to suffer because of my bad mood. Well, I'm not going to let that happen today. I'm going to just chug down some coffee and put on a happy face.It's so funny that I started out this blog feeling hopless and I've ended it feeling like I can do this! |
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